As if emerging from a dark hole. that journey back into the broken places. Part of this of course relates to the severance of all relationship with Catholics I knew in those years, so much left unspoken and unhealed. But noting that prayer experience is different in felt quality from the angst of memories or concepts about what should be happening, the idea of failure. Prayer is simply what it is and at moments something real there, a sense of abiding and presence, acceptance, comfort.
Barry and Connolly in their seminal work The Practice of Spiritual Direction
… help given by one Christian to another, which enables that person to pay attention to God’s personal communication to him or her, to respond to this personally communicating God and to live out the consequences of the relationship. The focus of this relationship is on experience, not ideas, and specifically on religious experience. This experience is viewed not as an isolated event, but as an expression of the ongoing personal relationship God has established with each one of us.